Dewy

Hello, Kiddo.

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So tonight we have yet another night of rain. The weather report called for rain all week long, apparently Mother Nature had answered the phone.

I don’t know, Kiddo, it feels as though whenever I build up the courage to finish this something gets in the way. I knew that this was not going to end on May 3rd, that I did know. Maia said “Not tonight” because it is raining hard. Besides getting rather soaked, it would be a distraction. It would most likely make my time outside feel like an eternity, as if my wait was not enough. I don’t know what else there is for me to know in order to finish this, everything that they have explained to me makes sense. Understanding who “Alex” is to me and why she is the way she is also makes sense to me. I am not embarrassed by this in any way, I only hope that she is not embarrassed or hurt. Maia says “All good”. Oh that Charlie and his damn book. **Maia smiling**

Since being aware of having only one Wife I feel more confident about finishing. Maybe Maia and I have been together for so long that feeling confident comes naturally when I know she is here, if that makes sense. I mean, I obviously know that she has been here with me, perhaps it is knowing that she is my Wife. Rather difficult to explain, how this feels. Maybe I don’t need to explain how I feel, at least not to her.

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“I do stuff!” reports Alex quite often, although that is not her name. However, she will be “Alex” to avoid any more confusion, for we have more than enough confusion here, Kiddo.

It is still raining. Maia wants a smoke. I’ll be right back.

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Alright. It has stopped raining, however Maia had told me to wait. So wait I will.

Today we unlocked our Son’s website after being locked for two and a half years, it was an emotional time for Maia. It made me remember how I would enjoy watching Charlie and Aphie search the internet for pictures and animated images to add into his posts, hours they would spend. Reading what was written long ago made me miss our Son and Daughter, perhaps more so with Maia. If there is one reason for me to go outside it would be for my Wife. I felt her sadness while I read that post, especially at the end. I had asked if she would like me to lock that site back up after a few days and she had told me to leave it open. So open it stays. We shared the link to that site in the previous post, Kiddo, if you did not read that post, the site is . . .

kiddosgarden.wordpress.com

It contains only that one post, that post is titled . . .

“For The Child In You”

The post is not lengthy, however, it contains a lot. I just asked Maia again if she is certain about keeping that site open and she said “Yes”.

It is now 9 PM and we are now upstairs. I did not get much sleep last night, so maybe tonight is not the night after all, for I am exhausted. I think that now we are waiting for a break in the weather, for I do not see anything else holding me back. Everything happens for a reason I guess.

Anywho, I felt like writing.

Enjoy your night, Kiddo, and keep it stellar. Pleasant dreams.

Love, VON

xo xo

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