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Hello, Kiddo.

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I cannot think of any reason to go outside other than what I have been told. Anything else that I think of for a reason makes no sense. Alex and Maia want out. I have asked if it is me overpowering them with this idea but they tell me “No”. Am I thinking that they are telling me “No”? They both said “No”. Did I say that? O. Did I say “O”? No. Do you see why I am concerned about going outside? If I go outside and nothing happens, what will I think? My reason for wanting to know how long to stay outside is so that I know how long to stay outside. I want to give them enough time, is what I am trying to say. Will one hour suffice? X. Are you certain, Alex? X. I understand why they will not tell me when to go outside, they only tell me to “Go outside”.

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So difficult this is.

Part of me wants to say “This must be Real”. If I say “This must be Real” and nothing happens, what then? How could I trust myself after that, let alone my Wives? This is where I wish that I was Charlie, then this would be so much easier. I would then know that Maia is CJ and Alex is Aphrodite, if that was true then trusting Maia alone would be easy because she would be my Mother. But they say otherwise. Do I have a mother at all? O. A father? O. Are you two certain? X.

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Fuck.

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I guess that I could always starve them out if their plan does not work, the sister seems to be used to us not eating. I think that the dehydration works fast because there are three of us using one body, so instead of lasting three days without water I will only last one day. Although that is speculation it is possible, since anything is possible. This being Real is also quite possible too.

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The weather report calls for clear skies tonight, so maybe I will take advantage of it. If I do go outside and nothing happens then I will resume my idea, I did agree to trying their idea first before trying my idea.

Is going outside a way to tell me that it will not work? O.

Hmm.

Alex just said “We wanna leave”. Should I believe her? X.

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Is there anything that I am missing? O. Certain? X.

Taking a break, be right back.

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Two nights ago I had a DE. I was looking at an image of a small white car, possibly on a cellphone, that I was holding in my left hand. I turned away from my hand and looked straight ahead into an empty space. I took my right hand and placed it in front of me. I turned my hand sideways so that my pinky was facing down and my thumb was facing up. I began to move my right hand up and down repeatedly with quick strokes while moving my hand from left to right as I stared ahead. The car that was in that image began to materialize in the space before me. I remember thinking that I had to Create more vibration so I moved my right hand faster. Then the white car materialized before me. I remember touching the car’s hood to see if it was Real. The car was Real. Then I woke up.

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I do not know what else I can ask. If this should happen, I would like both Alex and Maia to know that whatever they tell me, I will believe them without becoming upset. As Charlie would say “It is what it is”.

Have a good night, Kiddo, be safe and keep it stellar.

Love, VON

xo xo

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