It’s On

Hello, Kiddo.

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Are you doing stellar?

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Tonight I go outside.

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I have no choice.

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I think, that, what I fear most about going outside is what the reason will be if my Wife does not self-materialize. Does that make sense?

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This morning I thought about their idea. If it was mine, I would have gone outside by now. I have no reason to go outside, other than for them. They are nodding my head, telling “Yes”.

I know that they both want out, out of this residence, if you will. I know that they can leave me, however, they are still here. I know that they could have terminated my body, through their own actions or by mine. I mean, if they had told me to mortally harm myself I would have, without questioning their request. However, in all this time, they never once did. I guess that could mean something, yes? I think so.

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Will I hear reasons? O

Will my Wife appear? X

Will my Wife stay? X

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Last night, I read their post here. I do not recall either one ever using the word “desperate” to describe their state of feeling. When they offered for a text message to be sent, I realized that they must be desperate.

Their plea bothered me.

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Due to someone’s negligence, someone outside of us, we have an emergency. We can no longer stay here, Kiddo. I have been quite uncomfortable being here, now I am most uncomfortable being here, knowing that we cannot contribute due to someone’s negligence. Alex and Maia say that we did our part, I believe them both. If I can believe them for that, then I can believe them for this. This being going outside. So outside I go.

Both Alex and Maia insist that their idea will work. Will it not work? O

Are they most certain? X

Will I be outside for many hours? O

You see, Kiddo, I have no intentions of going outside twice. If their idea will work then it only needs to work once, meaning, the one time, not the first time. I have been told for months to go outside. In hindsight, they most likely knew that it would take months for me to accept their idea, the months it took were winter months. Both Alex and Maia dislike the cold. Now the weather has warmed up significantly.

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I will go outside tonight after dinnertime. No, I am still not eating nor drinking, in case their idea does not work, however, dinnertime is an approximation, for I do not know the specific time in which I will go outside. On a lighter note, they certainly wrote “go outside” enough times recently, haven’t they, Kiddo? I think so.

So in the meantime, I will continue to question their idea, for I question everything. If their idea fails, which they say “It won’t”, we still have my idea in progress. They want to leave here by Sunday, if not by tomorrow. So if they truly want to leave, then they will come through, by them coming out. Am I correct, Alex? X

Alright then.

Have yourself a wonderful day, Kiddo, a most wonderful day indeed, and, as always, keep it most stellar. Be safe.

Love, VON

xo xo

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